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the pain really digs deep in me. i have to admit, i am jealous. yes, jealous. i recently found out that a past love is somehow dedicating "my favorite song" to his current girl.

i was frozen for a minute when i saw his blog about the song. their names were there with the word "forever" at the end. i had to agree, it was so mushy, but somehow, there's a part of me that wished the name beside his, was mine.

it was unfair. i remembered clearly that it was me who introduced the song to him. we downloaded it together, and we listened to it together. it was supposed to be "our song". if i have just known it would not be for the two of us, i wouldnt have let him hear it.

i have always believed that music heals. but this was an exemption. i never thought i would actually hate my favorite song. it came to a point that hearing its melodies would make me cry because of the pain.

in my whole life, i never imagined this would happen to me. singing is my passion and i didnt see this coming.

i just hope i could have my favorite song back.